Tuesday, October 30, 2012

I can't Believe



I saw this a minute ago and thought it had a poetic quality to it but it's not formatted or expressed well enough for the other blog and I like the rawness of it so it's here.

Written 12/06/2012 0912

I can't believe that every star in the sky will fade because I'm not with you. But I am looking and they are hiding, faces covered, eyes closed, bright lights shut off from my world. Diamonds, richness, peace, and warmth exposed in reverse.

I've underestimated love and my attachment to you. Underestimated how your actions, words, twiches affect me in large ways.

I am not the brave facade that is portrayed. I am not the confident stride projected  into the future. But by all means possible my being will be in time. I will rise and I will fly free, with passion, zest and the depths of my soul.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Peace...Wishing On A Star

Yesterday I decided to blog today. But today,  I don't feel motivated to do so. I'm just feeling down.

So...see you around.



Wishing on a star
wishing on a rainbow
wishing that the world would end tonight
wishing that my sorrow will dissipate
into something else

I am wishing wishing wishing
That everything goes perfect
I am wishing wishing wishing
that time doesn't stop
I am wishing
for the end
but I do not want to be anywhere
near the beginning

I am hoping hoping hoping
That you'll love me today
I don't I don't I don't I don't
want to rise to the sunset
I just I just I just
Want to see the sun high in the sky
Everytime I rise

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

October 2, 2012 - Introducing audio to blog

Guess-what-guess-what-guess-what!!!

Yea...if you read the title you already know. I'm bringing voice to these words. Woo hooo. There are nine minutes and thirty-nine seconds of recorded data. Yes, I'm aware that I could've typed it but to find out the reason you'll have to just...I don't know...take about ten minutes out of your day for my devastatingly awesome voice. LOL!!

Wow! That last statement had me near tears. In the first recording you're enlightened as to why I've taken to recording myself and the second updates you as to how I spent my summer. I don't remember it that well maybe because I slept so much. After listening you'll know what I remember about it.

The After you've given it a listen to the files I've got more to say...

October 2, 2012 - Introducing audio to blog

...right here. I apparently forgot a number of things while recording. That is the beauty of writing for me personally, or rather one of them: it is that I can portray myself as an eloquent individual.

On to busines:

Since the trimester started I've had a repeat of the Hb tests mentioned in January 27 - Anemia I Think and a few others. One good thing about chronicling it there is that I'd forgotten the result for my blood pressure only retaining that it was low. Having visited seconds ago I can say that it was 99/73. I tested at the lab on September 18, 2012 and it was 97/69 which is still low and my Hb level had dropped from 11.9 to 11.8. The lab technician was shocked, asked if it was always like that and stated that I should see a physician if it continues.

At the time, I could not remember but after it came back to me that it was always low but no one ever thought anything of it. I'd been tested once before. When I was working I had an unbearable pain in the back of my neck, a coworker who suffered from Hypertension insisted upon taking me to a clinic to have my pressure checked and there told me I was fine that it was actually a little low.

I tested again last Thursday at the MBS Diabetes Screening after taking B-Complex over the weekend. The nurse said it was perfect. I told her of the previous happening and asked if the B-Complex she affirmed this adding that  should also begin taking an iron supplement.

I've had a few pains, and dizzy spells since but they've been minor so I'm cool.

Got other stuff to do. So..I hope the audio isn't a bother. Back to school related activities.

Peace, Blessings, Love