Some time ago, I feel deeply in love, I was mesmerized by vampires. I remember watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer and becoming enthralled in the series entirely: the protagonist and her love interest. It just so haven't he was a vampire. Spike loved her though he shouldn't have, wanted her beyond belief, betrayed his very being to be near and protect her. As the pitiful romantic that I am I fell for that. And of course as I continued to religiously watch the show the guy who she actually likes, Angel, enters and the mystery of him is captivating and again he too is a vampire. This was the beginning. How I feel deeper is harder to give a timeline.I am unsure about whether I found Charmed by waiting a little longer after Angel finished on TNT or waking to early too early for Charmed and happening upon Angel. How I got from Buffy to which ever of those is first is beyond me. But the point is: I was in deep: vampires, witches, vampire slayers, vampires who slay other evil beings, witch saving the world and themselves on a regular falling in love with unattainable men due to their evil position. You've gotten the gist.
The absurd the here isn't even that I became taken up with all of this and how. That part enters here when I tell you that through watching all of those things that I was fully aware of the impact they could have on other people; how true they were; how evil and demolishing they could be to the unguarded mind. [Growing up in the environment I did I know that witches and demons, soothsayers and the devil are real just as the vampires. Yes, they are real. They do not have the powers that are portrayed on screen and they are not immortal. Then again...considering there are demons and such some of the tricks they might have obtained. But they are not desirous characters, but are simply drinkers of blood. (And it should be noted that this is a blatant sinas the bible states not to.)] Knowing this I always kept my mind on-guard so as to always have my resistance up. Nonetheless I was still watching and reading the books, and series continuously.
It has been an extremely long time and because I enjoyed it so much , longer than it should have been. "But why stop?" you ask. It's not because I don't enjoy it or because I feel as though I've been harmed by it. I have made the decision to remove myself from all things which go against that which my God has said. It is my way of taking a stand. It is difficult to bypass numerous shows, series based on witches, vampires, werewolves, seers and the like it is excruciating. Then to add to that bit there's the onslaught of it in every other possible show on and around October 31. The point is though I don't feel hampered I know that God is bigger, wiser, more knowledgeable than I am and trusting Him is a big part of being in a relationship with Him and I like that kind of relationship where trust and faith, loyalty, honesty, openness are paramount.
I've realized that God treats us really special. He treats me really special. I could have died on so many occasions it's ridiculous, and I'm alive. I have sinned so blatantly and so often and He loves me enough to keep me here and still allow me the freedom to choose every day. He loves me despite my flaws. He listens to me despite my not listening to Him. He has allowed me to keep gifts which I have lain dormant for years. He bears with my everyday even when I'm ignoring Him. I am grateful to be loved in this way, this much do flawlessly. For that reason, I made this change and hope to make others soon.
In addition to refraining from watching shows of the sort mentioned it is also necessary that I change the name of this blog which is an advertizement of them. At the time I felt it was the perfect explanation saying that I was not what people thought and that I would be feeling free to be me here. Thankfully, the feeling I had in 2010 as I begun this of being controlled, in a box and completely the opposite of who I want to be has faded and I am comfortable with where I'm headed, and how I'm living.
Ink In These Veins feels like the perfect title. It shows the writer in me, the part which I cannot and do not want to get away from.
Peace, Love, and Blessings
Shaziane
The absurd the here isn't even that I became taken up with all of this and how. That part enters here when I tell you that through watching all of those things that I was fully aware of the impact they could have on other people; how true they were; how evil and demolishing they could be to the unguarded mind. [Growing up in the environment I did I know that witches and demons, soothsayers and the devil are real just as the vampires. Yes, they are real. They do not have the powers that are portrayed on screen and they are not immortal. Then again...considering there are demons and such some of the tricks they might have obtained. But they are not desirous characters, but are simply drinkers of blood. (And it should be noted that this is a blatant sinas the bible states not to.)] Knowing this I always kept my mind on-guard so as to always have my resistance up. Nonetheless I was still watching and reading the books, and series continuously.
It has been an extremely long time and because I enjoyed it so much , longer than it should have been. "But why stop?" you ask. It's not because I don't enjoy it or because I feel as though I've been harmed by it. I have made the decision to remove myself from all things which go against that which my God has said. It is my way of taking a stand. It is difficult to bypass numerous shows, series based on witches, vampires, werewolves, seers and the like it is excruciating. Then to add to that bit there's the onslaught of it in every other possible show on and around October 31. The point is though I don't feel hampered I know that God is bigger, wiser, more knowledgeable than I am and trusting Him is a big part of being in a relationship with Him and I like that kind of relationship where trust and faith, loyalty, honesty, openness are paramount.
I've realized that God treats us really special. He treats me really special. I could have died on so many occasions it's ridiculous, and I'm alive. I have sinned so blatantly and so often and He loves me enough to keep me here and still allow me the freedom to choose every day. He loves me despite my flaws. He listens to me despite my not listening to Him. He has allowed me to keep gifts which I have lain dormant for years. He bears with my everyday even when I'm ignoring Him. I am grateful to be loved in this way, this much do flawlessly. For that reason, I made this change and hope to make others soon.
In addition to refraining from watching shows of the sort mentioned it is also necessary that I change the name of this blog which is an advertizement of them. At the time I felt it was the perfect explanation saying that I was not what people thought and that I would be feeling free to be me here. Thankfully, the feeling I had in 2010 as I begun this of being controlled, in a box and completely the opposite of who I want to be has faded and I am comfortable with where I'm headed, and how I'm living.
Ink In These Veins feels like the perfect title. It shows the writer in me, the part which I cannot and do not want to get away from.
Peace, Love, and Blessings
Shaziane
