Sigh...

I feel as though I'm never actually sitting with people but around people....I never am apart of the group....always just a passerby...that connection that others feel together is usually missing. There's almost always a disconnect. The few who I do click with make it wortwhile though.

I can't wait to get away, to start over. I can't wait.

Persons often say when you go away you'll be alone...I'm already alone. I think I'm just about ready to decide against finding a significant other. It feels pointless right about now. Sigh.

Being here makes me sad.

Wow!

I am so happy...overwhelmed that I keep sprutting tears...I can 't believe we're almost finished our project, and it's so close to what I want. It's due tomorrow and it's just about where I want it.


THANK YOU JESUS!
:)

PEOPLE!!!

I hate when I people are in my personal space, and people keep standing to the wrong side of me...dmmit  MOVE!!! I don't think people get that I simply feel like exploding when they stand to close on the wrong side of me. It throws off my thoughts and I feel flustered....on another note...I hate being shadow and these ridiculous human keep attaching themselves to me..insert themselves into all my words...BACK THE HELLL OFFF geez...I shouldn't rant. But I'm at work and it's the only thing I can do to relax.

Peace

Distraught...

Broken, completely distraught. That's precisely how I feel. I feel alone...completely alone. I'm aware of all the knives in my back and I can feel every inch boring through my chest. But I smile, because I'm the only friend who can smile with open eyes, loyal heart....I smile at myself in the mirror because I can see every distrustful act in their eyes....and I'm tired of pretending th warmth in their laughter is real, that the humour filled remarks aren't simply snide comments they refuse to hold.


The first thing I think about
When I'm with you
The only thing I think about
When I'm with you
Is not breaking down
Is not falling so easily
It's simply being me...
I'm afraid of being too much


But isn't it lovely
How you flaunt
Your humour
Cover me with your laughter
Applaud me with your silent words
When you'v got her on your finger
And him on your arm

I am hurt. I feel broken. Nonetheless, it is time to move alone albeit alone.

Peace, Love, and Blessing

Pray for me. I need it