I don't know why the hell I ever though and keep fooling myself into ever thinking that I'd fit in. The only time I really do is when I'm imitating somebody and it's just so unreal and still I keep doing t , I keep trying to fit in to feel apart while maintaining my identity and it doesn't work....thankfully for who I am is me and even though I try wearing everybody's coat my skin, still shows beneath and the coat just don't fit right. They look pretty and I stand out for a while until I really begin to stand out and it's getting to me and I feel as though I"m going crazy and things keep getting hazy only they never clear they simply get hazier and then it gets hard to see and then what do I do get the urge to clear my eyes with tears but what good will that do when I can see clearly but there's nothing to see?
I really need to get comfortable in my skin, enjoy my nudity because it's beautiful even though I keep denying it. I don't know why it's so hard when I know exactly what I need to know which is that I will never fit in and that my skin is mine. It's for me to use it in a manner which is best and that isn't being cover in fraudulent mess.
I found someone in whom I see myself and he is different. He stands out in a way that allows persons to gravitate towards him and mimic 'him', not the other way around. He's different. His skin glitters n the dark and he doesn't wear a coat....or I can't make out the coat if there is one. I thought he was what I was looking for and it still feels that way only he has already found what I found in him within himself also and he doesn't need or want a compliment. So again I've got to do something that's worthwhile and me and inspiring and I am so tired of playing silly games, looking for friends and trust and trust and loyalty and apparently....it does not exist with the realm in which I've peered. So....I'm saying, maybe for the millionth time, forget everything, I'm doing me.
I am a twenty-one year old poet who plays wit various personality traits depending on my moods. I do not have any disorders. I generally live in depressionand I am aware of how to use it. I am anti-social and I enjoy observing and manipulating emotions through the arts. I am a voluptuous female who does not feel the need to be the centre of a male's attention when it comes my body, rather I enjoy being enlightened. I am honest, loyal and trustworthy in every sense of the word. I lie quite well and quite easily. I am proud. I have great potential and perseverance both of which I am trying to get passed those sages to being greater, the best.
I am a female with enough anger to kill without remorse. However, death isn't my job. So from hence forth I refuse to be shut up. I chose to tell you the truth as is asked or not.
Sincerely,
M-E
I really need to get comfortable in my skin, enjoy my nudity because it's beautiful even though I keep denying it. I don't know why it's so hard when I know exactly what I need to know which is that I will never fit in and that my skin is mine. It's for me to use it in a manner which is best and that isn't being cover in fraudulent mess.
I found someone in whom I see myself and he is different. He stands out in a way that allows persons to gravitate towards him and mimic 'him', not the other way around. He's different. His skin glitters n the dark and he doesn't wear a coat....or I can't make out the coat if there is one. I thought he was what I was looking for and it still feels that way only he has already found what I found in him within himself also and he doesn't need or want a compliment. So again I've got to do something that's worthwhile and me and inspiring and I am so tired of playing silly games, looking for friends and trust and trust and loyalty and apparently....it does not exist with the realm in which I've peered. So....I'm saying, maybe for the millionth time, forget everything, I'm doing me.
I am a twenty-one year old poet who plays wit various personality traits depending on my moods. I do not have any disorders. I generally live in depressionand I am aware of how to use it. I am anti-social and I enjoy observing and manipulating emotions through the arts. I am a voluptuous female who does not feel the need to be the centre of a male's attention when it comes my body, rather I enjoy being enlightened. I am honest, loyal and trustworthy in every sense of the word. I lie quite well and quite easily. I am proud. I have great potential and perseverance both of which I am trying to get passed those sages to being greater, the best.
I am a female with enough anger to kill without remorse. However, death isn't my job. So from hence forth I refuse to be shut up. I chose to tell you the truth as is asked or not.
Sincerely,
M-E
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Thanks. Danke. Grazie. Gracias.