Present happening:
I think I just hurt a friend in Trying to be entirely honest. Now I'm feeling pained. However, I have since made an amends of sorts by having the person promise to tell me his problem. It feels much better, not perfect but less burdened.
Decisions:
Over the last years I have been Wondering where I'm headed and it is my belief ghat I comd to ths point shere I am positive of how I wan to Life my personal and professional life. I want fhem to be synced so perfect tly that their end and begin appear, after deep scrutiny, to be indistinguishable. It is my desire to live and be of the Life I want. Both should be ruled by the exact principles, and neither should become less important because of the other.
This will be extremely difficult especially with mg black of time management. However, with the elimination of certain aspects space, gime, and peace become available for the important. The most important goal, task, things in my world is helping people, making them feel happier, healthier, freer, more at ease in their own skin, loved, precious, meaningful in self, existence and t the world. What is also of importance, is me feeling this way as well, and the things which enable me to feel everything above is the use and expression of my talent for the betterment of persons. Yes, what I've just written is entirely circular and for that reason the decision I am or have made seems...justified. To complete the work I have set before me it requires unfaltering dedication which cannot be given If I decide to form a family.
And there one could interject, 'I bet she's just sad about not finding Mr. Right.' However, I have found him. At least I found what I,very been looking for: someone who respects, trusts, accepts, appreciates, values, and cherishes me and what I bring to them table. Prior to writing this I have extensively thought about the possibility of marrying this wonderfully capable man, and in doing so I've realized I could lose the friend I have in him and my dream...simultaneously and that is too much to handle. I love my friend. I enjoying our friendship which can last for the next fifty plus years but I am not ready to take any unnecessary risks. The only saddeningly unfortunate thing that can happen for me is him marrying in the near future. And still, though that would be excruciating it would remain on a level lower than the lack of a dream or dreams fulfilled.
11/12/2012 00:51
This will be tumultuous but nothing of significant substance is ever easy. The understanding that there will be opposition from confidantes to strangers is present. But my aim, my will is too big to be deterred for want of normalcy where it has never existed. With the path presently being designed, it is intended that peace and happiness will dwell with a strong dose of contented aspirations. Having gotten to this point in the entry I'm remembering, I'm being reminded that God is the Leader. He is the one upon whom I should depend for the writing and designing of life's path. He is the One who decides the job or jobs which I must accomplish, and He is the one sets the time. But honestly, I just don't want to be hurt again, and I want to help people, and do so from without the box.
May God add His blessings unto me, and the works which my hands have and will do. Amen.
I think I just hurt a friend in Trying to be entirely honest. Now I'm feeling pained. However, I have since made an amends of sorts by having the person promise to tell me his problem. It feels much better, not perfect but less burdened.
Decisions:
Over the last years I have been Wondering where I'm headed and it is my belief ghat I comd to ths point shere I am positive of how I wan to Life my personal and professional life. I want fhem to be synced so perfect tly that their end and begin appear, after deep scrutiny, to be indistinguishable. It is my desire to live and be of the Life I want. Both should be ruled by the exact principles, and neither should become less important because of the other.
This will be extremely difficult especially with mg black of time management. However, with the elimination of certain aspects space, gime, and peace become available for the important. The most important goal, task, things in my world is helping people, making them feel happier, healthier, freer, more at ease in their own skin, loved, precious, meaningful in self, existence and t the world. What is also of importance, is me feeling this way as well, and the things which enable me to feel everything above is the use and expression of my talent for the betterment of persons. Yes, what I've just written is entirely circular and for that reason the decision I am or have made seems...justified. To complete the work I have set before me it requires unfaltering dedication which cannot be given If I decide to form a family.
And there one could interject, 'I bet she's just sad about not finding Mr. Right.' However, I have found him. At least I found what I,very been looking for: someone who respects, trusts, accepts, appreciates, values, and cherishes me and what I bring to them table. Prior to writing this I have extensively thought about the possibility of marrying this wonderfully capable man, and in doing so I've realized I could lose the friend I have in him and my dream...simultaneously and that is too much to handle. I love my friend. I enjoying our friendship which can last for the next fifty plus years but I am not ready to take any unnecessary risks. The only saddeningly unfortunate thing that can happen for me is him marrying in the near future. And still, though that would be excruciating it would remain on a level lower than the lack of a dream or dreams fulfilled.
11/12/2012 00:51
This will be tumultuous but nothing of significant substance is ever easy. The understanding that there will be opposition from confidantes to strangers is present. But my aim, my will is too big to be deterred for want of normalcy where it has never existed. With the path presently being designed, it is intended that peace and happiness will dwell with a strong dose of contented aspirations. Having gotten to this point in the entry I'm remembering, I'm being reminded that God is the Leader. He is the one upon whom I should depend for the writing and designing of life's path. He is the One who decides the job or jobs which I must accomplish, and He is the one sets the time. But honestly, I just don't want to be hurt again, and I want to help people, and do so from without the box.
May God add His blessings unto me, and the works which my hands have and will do. Amen.
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Thanks. Danke. Grazie. Gracias.