Love?

I've thought about what exactly this ought to be: the definition, the actions that go along with it, the way in which those who experience it should feel, act and react toward person they experience it for.

Unfortunately, for this abstract I have found no complete concrete answer for the first. From observation, the second seems to be one of caring, sharing, gentle, at some times caring at others aggressive depending on the persons overall character/personality and also the situation. The third is much harder...and I am still observing/compiling and analysing.

The basis of this is that I don't know what love is outside of the family or rather brotherly (agape) type. For this reason among others(to be discussed later) I've decide to withdrawn myself from courting.

I have feelings for guys which I truly do not understand. The only one I completely understand (or at least I think I understand) is obsession/addiction. Can that be love? I don't know...

I feel something for Brick. It's almost like love. I'm obsessed with a close on-line friend. But wouldn't that latter cancel the former? I'm confused.

Brick is tired of waiting after almost a year...made his umpteenth move yesterday after a break in his succession of moves. I don't know if it feels right. Still I rely on if I love him or not....and there I land over and over again. Stuck.

Shazi C