Moody....is an understatement..

For the last few weeks my mood/emotions have been all over the place. It is usually like this but it has become worst, much more drastic. The swings are more sudden than they were before.

I feel the sadness on my skin, the happiness is the same. They take me over more completely and yet move on so quickly and when they don't I swing into a numb or slight depression to deep depression.

At least karate is still good. I learned a few things pertaining to training and got some tips on my side snap kick.

I'm presently wondering if one Mr. Vagon likes me. Sometimes it seems like he does and at other times as though he's simply being friendly. Sometimes he speaks less casually than he does with other and then at times like tonight, I find him staring at me...not looking. In addition he goes on calls my name..."Shaziane" as if its something other than a name and then lets it hang there....in the air, almost as if he's listening. When I do answer he waits a bit longer then throws himself into the conversation even if its the usual "How are you?"

He's baffling me. I'm baffling me. Thankfully, he's focused and executes most things correctly with little flaws. Whenever something new is being done I can always look to him to find the correct method and rhythm.

Wish I could live in silence. lol

And I miss my fellow bell. *sigh* It'd be much easier and fun with her. Not that it isn't. But everything is better when she's around. She is like a sister to me.