May Your Ashes Burn Well

I know that I'm soft. I am aware that I take things too seriously. I am fully aware that I am forever in the state of over reacting. But I also know when you're treating me in a manner that you do not treat anyone else. I know when you're disrespecting me, because it hurts. A large number of people seem to have it engraved somewhere within their minds that they, without my knowledge, own me, my decisions, and abilities. Often I am belittle because someone else is always better than me. Though I may take it, act as though it is nothing. It is and I am finally tired enough to walk away from all the crap. I am finally tired enough to stop taking people's attitude for the sake of having company and feeling normal. It's not worth feeling normal if all normal is, is feeling terribly worthless when you're around people who you kinda or should feel open around. I'm threw having "friends". It is much better to be despised and have people treat you with disrespect than to have people who befriend within your own m,ind treat you with the same disrespect. It feels like the billionth time that I'm coming to this conclusion. But this time I'm doing something about it. I am moving away from everyone who degrades me in anyway. If you can't help me feel better about myself and actually keep up wit the charade around people you'd like to seem cool with, what's the point of a so-called relationship. Breathing, Stretching, Shaking let it go Ashes to Ashes Dust to dust I'm doing what I must